Don't have it in me..

So last night I was up late going through horse rescue websites. I came across one my my favorite sites, Alex Brown Racing: http://forums.prospero.com/alexbrown/messages and read some postings about how the local kill pen/horse auction is a resting stop for horses illegally transported from California en route to Mexico for slaughter. It is illegal to sell or transport a horse in California to slaughter, but it still happens and great people are out there trying to expose the truth, and stop it from happening. I have been to the auction before, I thought maybe this is my calling to start documenting what I see. I was going to head up there yesterday ( its only 10 miles from my house ) and take pictures but I don't have it in me to do so.. Going to that auction that day in December in 2006 was one of the most emotional days for me. Knowing that so many of the horses there would end up being slaughtered. Seeing so many shady people who are in the horse trade business for the money including the white trash lady who has a "rescue" next door and buys the horses and resells for big profits.

My life is finally getting on track. Getting out of debt, and trying to stay focused on my weight loss journey. Getting involved with documenting SW Livestock Auctions doing would do nothing but bring me heartache as I haven't found any good horse rescue people near by, and miss my good horse rescue friends in Arizona.. I would be my own one person army and I just don't have it in me.. Anyway that is my thoughts for tonight.. It depresses me to think about the way we treat animals and the horror of horse slaughter. The picture above is of Sand, my first rescued Thoroughbred who is a big dog. He has a great personality and to think that other horses, hundreds go to slaughter every week, which is a dirty secret that a small percentage of the US knows about makes me sad-

I am off to bed and going to dream happy thoughts now :)